home is not where you live, but where they understand you

Where we love is home,
Home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts.

it's strange, home is home. even after living there for seven years, i would never call Dublin home.
i've always been a nomad there, lease to lease. i have people i love there and who's homes and understanding i have shared. but i've never really considered it home.
home was always where i grew up, where my family is, where i go home to.
but somehow, in the way that Dublin has been a home to me, home is becoming here too.
and i'm not even sure if i have the reason why.

some days here are shit. really crap. but honestly, the good days are little short of amazing.
this weekend alone was a rollercoaster that ended on a really high note.

i'm leaving GVN in two weeks. i'm leaving Viet Nam in about one month.
yet i'm already planning to come back.

am i being selfish?
am i just playing a game to wait out the recession at home?
is it achievable?
can i actually make a difference if i do stay here?
when will i go home this trip? when will i return from here?
what will have changed when i get home to Ireland?
what will i do when i get there?

so many questions. so little answers.
but i left home without a plan so there's little point in trying to draw up anything to detailed at this point i guess.

there are a few people from home that i would really love to see right now.
to talk to, to talk things through with, to talk face to face with, see your faces.
you should know who you are and you should know that i miss you, and your beautiful faces!

on that note though, there are a few people i have met since i got here who i feel so incredibly at home with. people who i am honored to have met and shared time and experiences with. i suppose this whole volunteering thing is a pretty intense experience and relationships grow at a faster pace. or maybe it's just that there's a certain mindset that is attracted to this sort of thing and it's those people with whom the connection is made.

i'm not sure about any of these things right now except that i already have a beautiful home but i may have found a second one.